Closure

Email — Vili / Ana

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Ana ,

I have to say I’m deeply confused and a bit hurt by what I’m reading..

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I’m sorry you’re confused. My writings have been specific and detailed.

I’m sorry you’re a little bit hurt. I took the trouble in those writings to come to and fully express full forgiveness.

In those same writings I predicted that that forgiveness would be subsumed, overriden and ultimately forgotten in favor of a clinging to more negative perceptions of the process of analysis of your words.

That does indeed seem to be happening.

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I’m also getting the sense that I won’t be able to repair this misunderstanding , without providing more ammunition for additional misunderstandings..

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The word you chose, “ammunition”, neatly sums up the difference between the way you have begun perceiving my inputs and my motivations in providing them.

As I have released you from any commitment, formal, informal, applied or felt, to represent me in the world, I also now release you from any expectations of further personal communion, hoping that you have brought away from our past conversations something of value.

And I will offer as well that should you ever, by review, gain clarity about the events of the last few days sufficiently to overcome the perception that “ammunition” has ever been aimed at you — or anyone else — by me (this perception was already behind the conversation in question), and wish to recommence a friendship free of such a suspicion, please do feel free to get in touch.

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you are welcome at opal haus if you change your mind, that room is open for you.

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Thank you. That news would have seemed welcome to me last Thursday.

Please give the room to the young lady who said she didn’t want it and changed her mind.

Bright blessings, my young friend.

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The poet/editor of this website is physically disabled, and lives at a fraction of her nation’s poverty level. Contributions may be made at:

https://www.gofundme.com/are-you-a-patron-of-the-arts

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